Treading Water

I feel like Shawn is treading water.  He is not getting better and not getting worse.  He is not making progress and there is no end in sight for this hospital trip.  

In some ways, this is not a bad status.  If he is not getting worse then this is giving time for the immunotherapy to work.  So, I should be thankful.  This is why a person treads water after a shipwreck - to stay afloat.  They are buying time, waiting for a boat to come by and pull them out of the ocean.  I feel like that is Shawn.  Just trying to buy time. 

Normally when you are in the hospital, there is a discernible condition that they are taking steps to rectify. In this case, they seem to be taking a wait and see approach. They want him here in case anything gets worse (i.e., his lungs or his heart).  In the meantime, we are waiting.  Treading water. 


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